Hey guys!!! Well..I was getting kinda bored with this ..so I made a new 1.. I'll be writing on there from now on..so here it is!

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In my platforms I hit the floor, fell face down, didn't help my brain out. Then the baby came before I found the magic how to keep her happy. I never was the fantasy of what you want-wanted me to be.  Don't judge me so harsh little girl, so you got a playboy mommy. But when you tell them my name and you want to cross that Bridge all on your own, Littlge girl, they'll do you no harm, cause they know, your playboy mommy. But when you tell them my name, from here to Birmingham I got a few friends. I never was there, was there when it counts. I get my way, you're so like me. You seemed ashamed, ashamed that I was a good friend of American Soldiers. I'll say it loud here by your grave..those angels..they can't ever take my place.  Don't judge me so harsh little girl. Somewhere where the orchids grow, I can't find those church bells, that played when you died, played that lonely song. Don't judge me so harsh little girl, you got a playboy mommy. Come home, but when you tell them soldiers my name, cross that bridge, all on your own, Littlge girl, those angels will do you know harm, cause they know your mommy, but I'll be home, yes, I'll be home, home again, to take you in my arms. Just save me a space..because those angels will never take my place.

I'm so over her..all I ever do is get yelled at. I'm so sick of it..I dont even want to talk to her anymore. He's sick of it too..I'm scared for them

*Don't push me away again..my heart's just hard to find..my words are hard to speak..my trust is hard to get*

Currently Playing Tales of a Librarian: A Tori Amos Collection (Bonus DVD) By Tori Amos Pray for her strength see related

well..my birthday went well..very well in fact. thank god..

im so exhausted..erin stayed over..haha good times erin 

well let's see...today-i got up at 10:00..felt like shit..ate some really bad pancakes that me and erin made..then felt pretty good..then felt like shit again..and still do..ugh..i feel bad b/c i was such a bitch at the mall to travis and nick ..but oh well..i have excuses...

*A Bouvier till her wedding day, shots rang out the police came. Mama layed me on the front lawn, and prayed for strength. Feeling old by 21, never thought my day would come.Make me laugh say you know what you want, you said we were the real thing, so i show you some more and I learn what black magic can do, make me laugh say you know you can turn me into the real things, so I show you some more, and I learn. I got lost on my wedding day, typical the police came, if you love enough you'll lie a lot, guess they did, but mama's waiting on my front lawn, she prays, she prays, she prays, for my strength. Shot on my wedding day*

Currently Playing Fumbling Towards Ecstasy By Sarah McLachlan see related

*I see your face and feel your heartache,I see the trace of the tears you have cried,The silent sound of the hurt left unspoken,You were stroung enough to hide,but,all your life, no one's ever shown you what it's really like to have someone. And in the arms of love, he promised to  lift you above all the madness. For one more chance to be a believer-while there's still a chance in time. All your life no one there besdie you, just close your eyes and let this moment find you, high above the world where dreams are sailing, where everything you've wanted..he's promised he'll be there waiting.*

..Have you ever wondered what goes on inside other people's brains? Like sometimes you just have to ask yourself.."what the hell were they thinking", i mean i know people say things they didn't mean to, or think things they shouldn't have..but if you have something to say..just keep it to yourself..things are better left unsaid sometimes. I talked with someone that I can always count on last night..and I'm wishing that everything will turn out to be grand sooner or later.

This is such a bad feeling..just thinking about life without a certain person for a while..(you know who you are)..you can't leave me..I'd probably jump off a bridge..i'd miss you to death-but if it's what you want, and you want a change, I'm all for it..<3

someday..everything's going to come together..like a story. There's going to be some up's..and many many downs..but you can't give up-you have to hope for the best in the future, and sooner or later-life will begin to make sense.It's not that easy to believe-quiete frankly, you don't want to believe it. If you want something, you have to make the best of it, and do it yourself, because if you just sit back and think it's going to come to you..you're wrong. I've learened alot..and I thank you..from the bottom..of my heart.

Birthday's aren't that special..but for 1 day..just 1 day..I want to have no worries..I just wanna be easy going..fearless..and a little loved..I can't wait to make my wish tomorrow night...<3